LATER HATERS!

Ever noticed that you can't smell a distinct smell in your own house, but in other peoples you can? I'm pretty sure that's about how my weight loss has gone. I know I can feel it in my actions, but I don't see it! When I say I don't see it, that doesn't mean that others haven't.

This week I attended a funeral visitation and the Bedford High School Homecoming activities. I received an abundance of compliments that I couldn't be happier about! I smiled ear to ear with every one and tried not to jump into the persons arms and tell them thank you! Then I take picture and actually LOOK at myself. Not just in the mirror but I study myself. Holy crap.... I really do look good!

I needed this change more than anything. I needed to be healthier for the sake of my present and for my future. I know I'm only 20 years old but I quite frequently think about my grandchildren.. and great grandchildren.. and so on. I want to be in their lives! I want to be up and moving and healthy to be apart of their lives! I want to wear my sons football jersey on homecoming and have it fit. I want to wear hip clothes so my daughter can like me that much more. I have goals for my future that give me a reason to lose weight. All very good reasons.

It took me years to come to terms with my body type. I have two amazingly beautiful older sisters who got blessed with gorgeous curves and size small t-shirts. When I was growing up, I would try to fit into all of their clothes. And when I say try, that means I succeeded. Even if the jeans took splitting the crotch out to wear them, I WAS going to wear them. Even if my muffin top was like an XL run over muffin... Yep, wore it..... I would try to fit into size medium dress shirts and so much more. One day I studied a picture of myself and I was like.... OMG what am I wearing? Why do I look like that? What was I thinking!? Lightbulb came on that day and that is where size large Audrey began. I was made fun of all through middle school and high school for being the chunky girl or any other name that people could call me. I was the girl with an awesome personality so the only thing they could spite me with was my weight. Why is it that girls have to be so self conscious about their weight from such a young age? Because some people like to be jerks.

I would like all of those jerks to take a nice look at me now... let their jaw drop really low... hear the words, "holy crap, she got hot"... and I'll keep walking because I know you couldn't accept me in my 6 size too small jeans 9 years ago...  LATER HATERS!

This week I was starving. I wanted to eat EVERYTHING in sight. I even made the comment to my boyfriend, "I could eat a whole house right now" and his response was, "are you going to let the people get out first or.....". Yup, that's how my week went. I ate nearly a whole tube of pringles chips one night at midnight because I was so stressed out from homework. I still went to the gym every single day but I was eating a TON. I weigh in every Thursday and I was nearly scared to death to go step on that scale. But LOL because I gained 10% muscle mass compared to 2% last week and lost 2% body fat. Since my muscle mass was increasing, I needed more protein. Without protein I was just constantly hungry. It all came together pretty quickly and started to make sense. Not to mention I still lost weight. That my friends is why this is not a DIET because none of this involved dieting and I still became a healthier version of who I was last week.

This week was everything I needed and more and I couldn't thank each of you enough. You are the greatest support system a girl could ask for. Especially my best friend Sam who went on a long morning jog with me on Saturday. :) I love getting the comments and compliments that people give me because they truly give me motivation to continue! I hope you see what I am doing and give yourself some motivation to do it as well! Remember, we are in this together!

Hope everyone has a great week!

xoxo, Audrey