Why I help people

When I was younger, my parents taught me to help all of those around me and to be the best person possible. They had high expectations for me and I always strived to meet those to make them proud. I loved having this image of being the person who would bend over backwards for someone else.

Recently I have had all sorts of body confusion and ended up gaining back 6 pounds. Those steps backwards, they SUCK. BUT they have made me realize why I help others. When I am down in the dumps from gaining this weight, I feel disgusting, I feel heavy, and I want to sit in a corner and cry. When I feel like that, I know that other people get this same feeling.

When you're in that rut, coming out of it seems virtually impossible. You convince yourself that fat isn't all that bad so you keep eating bad, drinking bad, and not exercising. This morning I finally got my butt out of bed and exercised because enough is enough. I am so tired of feeling this way after feeling so good. I want to help other people feel that good. I don't care if it's through every product you want to try or simply from eating the right foods, I want to help.

I know that when I feel this crappy, I just want someone who will understand my constant complaints but help me push through.

Tough love doesn't do it for me. Sure, if someone looked at me right now that hadn't read this and said, "looks like you gained weight" I would probably be back up in the morning ready to workout, but nobody is rude enough to say that (or I hope they aren't).

Once I started helping a friend of mine lose weight. We ended up on the phone together and she said to me, "you have to realize that you're making this sound really easy and the truth is that it isn't". She told me, "You have been doing this for so long that it seems easy to you now, and you don't realize how hard it is for some people to do this". Wholy buckets was she right. I've been in this rut so eating healthy seems impossible. I want sweets and junk food and tons of carbs. The choice of eating a salad does not always come EASY to people, until they see the results.

Please understand that following me through this journey, I am just as much a work in progress as  you, sometimes maybe even more. One of my best friends is signed on as a coach under me, meaning I am supposed to be her coach. Little did I know that she would be more of a coach to me that I am to her in the long run. Join me in this journey, and know that it isn't easy. Not one bit of it is easy. But starting small baby steps of good habits turns into running and next thing you know it will be you telling people it is easy.

Promise me something, if you read this tonight, get up in the morning and workout. Salena will have class at the studio at 5am in Bedford if you need the extra push of someone beside you, and if you're more of a night person Tuesday night at 5:45 we will be working out again. Youtube videos and just get up and be active. Second promise, if you have extra cash laying around that you would like to spend on yourself, look into a fitbit, or some form of activity band. This will help motivate you to continue to stay active throughout the day and to challenge others while youre doing it.

XOXO,
Audrey