Coming up on 4 weeks ago I started feeling really sick. I was having headaches and constantly tired. I didn't get out of bed for the entire week for more than 6 hours a day. I ended up in the emergency room feeling like crud and they told me nothing showed up and nothing was wrong. My headaches then continued for 2 more weeks to the point where I would trap myself in a dark room and cry trying to get the pain to go away. I went to see an ear nose and throat specialist because I was told allergies may be the problem. Despite my requests he didn't give me an allergy test, just 3 shots and 5 medications. I was on these medications for 10 days. Upon finishing them on the 10th day (last thursday) I started feeling very ill and fatigued. That night I started feeling my headaches come back. I had visitors come from 9 and a half hours away so I couldn't let it get to me, I kept going strong. Saturday night it became unbearable. Ross gives me head massages when I have a headache, which is about the closest thing to relief that I get. On top of the headaches I started having a sore throat. This has been the longest 4 weeks of my life and I have never wanted to be not sick more in my life. I was referred to a Neurologist and will be making an appointment to see one soon.
With this 4 week sickness my motivation has been flushed down the toilet. I was on a medication called prednisone. If you've ever been on this, you know that it makes you feel like you are hungry 24/7. I was becoming depressed this last week because I didn't have the energy to workout. When I tried to workout I couldn't push myself too hard because I would nearly pass out.
I started to become depressed. I didn't want to do anything but sleep eat and cry. Not to mention the fact that my homework tends to pile up when I ignore it. Then on top of it I felt like I had gained every pound back that I had lost. At weigh in on Tuesday.. I had actually lost more weight..... I jumped on the scale and wanted to scream IS THIS A JOKE!?!?!?! But, I guess I can't complain! Maintaining your weight loss is part of this journey as well!
I have began to enjoy running. I started a training program to help me attempt to prepare for possibly running a half marathon this coming summer. It has always been an item on my bucket list it's just not going to be an easy one! I am looking for a partner as well if anyone is interested! If I don't do a half marathon I at least want to sign up for as many 5K races as I can this summer and try to do as many as possible. That would be equally as fun!
Most of all, I have learned that my mind is going to say no a thousand times before my body. I have school, work, and weight loss to worry about in life so my brain is going to think it needs to tap out and just sit around every once in a while. I have to keep pushing myself past my limits to get better and better. As I looked in the mirror this morning and talked to my boyfriend it hit me. NEVER in my adult life have I weighed 186 lbs and been able to maintain that. The last time I weighed 186 I was in 8th grade! I have to be happy about what I have achieved and know that I can continue to improve AFTER I focus on improving my health. I have to put myself first and stay focused on what I can do, not what I can't.
Halloween is right around the corner which means sugar temptations right and left. I was showed a picture the other day that will make you think every single time you have a bowl of candy in front of you and I'll bet that you don't touch a piece. I do encourage you to enjoy the holiday though! Take a break from everything else in life and dress up. Have a little fun with it!
But remember,
XOXO,
Audrey
P.S. I posted on my facebook that I have created a PDF file of some of my favorite workouts and also a list of tips and tricks on how I got started with my weight loss and also continued instead of giving up. I would LOVE to share this with anyone that is interested. If you are you can comment on this blog, PM me on facebook, or contact me in any way with an email and I will get it to you as soon as possible! I am NOT an expert but I have lost 14 pounds and would love to help you get started on your own journey as well!
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