The thought crossed my mind today... And every day this last week. Do you know what thought that was? It's the one that got me in trouble last time I lost weight.... and then gained it all back.
"can I quit yet"......
Defeat. I felt defeat. I feel like this last week my brain won't listen to me. I'm eating crappy I'm chowing down on foods I shouldn't... Today I ate my first bag of candy since this all started. I am a candy ADDICT. All things candy, get me. My dream job is being a candy tester for Wonka... That is if I didn't have goals that were more worth it than that...
I can't stop eating junk food. I love food, I love trying new foods, everything. However, these foods make me want to cry. I am becoming depressed and sad because I can't stop eating the bad foods. Something has triggered in my brain and that trigger is dangerous. I just want to lay in bed, I haven't worked out for 2 days, carbs seem to be my best friend.. The list just keeps going.
Why do we get to this point in our weight loss journey where we feel like nothing works? I've been at a standstill with my weight for 3 months now and I actually just gained 5 back and feel like crap. I gained 5 back while working out in the morning and at night and eating by following the 21 day fix. I feel hopeless. I feel the way I felt when I didn't want to lose weight before. I felt like I was stuck at my weight and never going to change.
Tips anyone?
Encouragement?
Help?
Kind words?
I hope you know that this isn't the point where I will give up and it isn't where you should give up if this happens to you either. Collect yourself and start again. Don't throw in all of your hard work and give it up now. Keep at it. Consistency is key and these falls are what is going to help you perfect your health.
I'll keep telling myself I can do this, if you do too.
XOXO,
Audrey
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